I knew that I spent a lot of my time devoted to my husband and Lia, but it really was evident to me really how much time being a wife, a mother and a housekeeper takes!
After they left I was able to:
- Finish all of my homework uninterrupted!
- Finish the laundry uninterrupted!
- Take a much needed snooze, uninterrupted! (Tuesday night was spent 3/4 of the night up with Lydia, who was having an exceptionally hard time sleeping? and the other 1/4 up with an upset stomach...)
- Go for a run...which is a very rare occasion any more since I'm too much of a wimp to go with Lydia.
- Do some research.
- Write a paper for school.
- And get a good night's sleep!
It was very nice to join them again on Thursday. I did miss them very much. I have been really down on myself recently because I felt like I have not been able to keep up with everything that I need to and want to do. I've been feeling so overwhelmed trying to be a good wife and spend time with my husband, a good mother and spend time with my daughter, a good homemaker and keep the house clean and in order and make meals for my family, a good student and finish all of my homework to get good grades so that I can possibly get into medical school, trying to study my scriptures and find time for temple attendance, be a good visiting teacher, be a good employee for the Mortuary, and struggling to feel good about myself because I had no time for physical activity and service for others. And I actually didn't understand why I couldn't do all of those things as well as I wanted (if you know me, I am some what of stickler -- thanks to my father, I believe -- and if I am going to do something, I want to do it well; the best that it can be done). Every time I took time to do something that I wanted to get done, or even needed to be done, it put me behind in another area! I have been constantly trying to play catch up! Just having some time to myself really helped me to see why I can't do everything right now, especially because there were still things that I would have liked to do and didn't even without having a one year old getting into everything that she possibly can.
A note to Mother and father of my own:
I do not understand how you did the things that you did and you continue to amaze me! I think I just reasoned with myself that since Dad could handle school full time (overfull time), six children, a full time job, and being the ward clerk and Mom having to take care of those kids most of the time by yourself and the house and provide us with such a memorable childhood!-- that I should be able to handle my responsibilities with a smile on my face. What an example you both are to me! Thank you for everything. I will never stop wishing, until it happens, that we were closer so Lydia could know,a little better, what great people her grandparents are.
2 comments:
Brindy! You are silly! You are such an amazing mom, homemaker, student, wife...all of the above! you have so many amazing talents and are raising such a smart little girl. I wish i had half the talent that you have and could be as good a mom as you! so quit kicking yourself! You are awesome!:)
Oh My Brindy Girl You are always too hard on yourself...And like I always say...You are amazing!! You are doing what you can, where you are now, with the abilities and talents you were given. Just remember "And this, too, shall pass away." But the experience, knowledge, and lessons learned will linger. Sure love you. Mom
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