Just Wanna Go Home

The winter days that drag on toward the end of February seem to enhance feelings of depression and a desire for happiness. The middle of a semester always seems to encourage feelings of anxiety and being overwhelmed. Disagreements with people always leave me feeling awful, hated, and alone. I don't know whether it is the winter, school or people being wroth with me, but I am just not feeling myself and I cannot seem to dig my way out of it. I know that I shouldn't let such things get to me, but I am not a very disagreeable person, in fact I hate disagreements so when someone finds reason to argue with me, it really hurts me terribly. I find it difficult to express myself when someone else is so intolerable and unreasonable. When everything I try to do or say is flipped and turned inside out to be interpreted as hurtful or rude, it is incredibly frustrating to even try any more. I don't even know the real reason why such arguments start, I don't even really see them as arguments really, just immaturity and miscommunication. I wonder if any one else struggles with these same feelings. Do arguments ever start out of the blue for any one else? I'm beginning to feel as though everyone secretly despises me and is just waiting for the chance to stab at me. I just want to leave this place forever. Never look back and never have to dance on eggshells when I'm in the midst of family of all people! I just have a hard time understanding why others' families would want to find fault with each other and search for issues to fight over and cause havoc and trouble. My family has never had any problems with this whatsoever. Is it common? Am I just naive in thinking that a family should be built around unconditional love and support for each other? Please just take me home! I long for the feeling of a mother's love and a father's pride, and not have to accommodate for miles in between. I wish for my sisters' talks and silly things to cheer me up when something goes wrong. I yearn for the support that comes with a loving family; for uplifting conversations and spiritual discussions. I want to feel a part of that bond and the strength and power that comes from it; the security and comfort that can only come from dear relationships. Please, show me the way home, and I will make every effort to make it there as quickly as possible!